I think we could write hundreds of books about what it means to trust God. I’ve been a Christian a long time but I can’t say I have figured it out.   Maybe it’s because I keep having to “relearn” everything.  I keep wrestling with the same questions i’ve had since I was 15 – just in different forms. Trusting someone I can’t see is still mysterious to me. What does it mean to trust God? Why does “trusting” God feel like jumping off a cliff?  And am I just supposed to blindly free fall with my hands tied? I wish I could be so solid in my faith that this was easier.

We know God wants us to trust him. It’s important.  So important in fact that the Bible uses the words “Trust” and “God” over 200 times in the same sentence.  Jesus often called God father and spoke of how as a parent God meets his children’s needs (Matthew 7:7  is at least one example.)

So i’ve been thinking on this and trying to imagine what that feels like.  What does it feel like to trust God? I didn’t have to go far to picture it as I live with a house full of little ones that trust and depend on me.  I have a six month old daughter who will not sleep unless she is touching me.  She cries when she hears the vacuum or anything loud. I’ve seen her get scared and immediately her eyes go searching for me. Once she hears my voice or sees me smile she calms down. Why? Because she trusts that I am protecting her. I am the source of her security – her refuge.  My older children have learned this too and apply it in other ways.  Is it safe to explore a new situation? Can I climb that tree? What if I fall? What if I am rejected by the new kids? My three and four year old look to me in these situations and if I give the okay they completely trust everything will be okay. Even IF those bad things happen mom and dad will make it better.

It’s just astonishing to me that God in his infinite might and glory IS that loving and compassionate to us.  He actually desires we trust Him like a child trusts their parent. Total dependance. Total hope. Fearless and free. I think God loves the chaos and dissonance we go through as we struggle and overcome. Like a parent, He has wisdom and stands tall along side us as we learn to be like Him.  When we struggle, we still have hope because we trust our Father knows why and will make it right.

“Oh taste and see that the Lord is GOOD!  Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!” Psalm 34:8  

“Trust the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5

As scary as free falling may be I believe I can trust God through it.  May we cling to our Father today and make Him our refuge.

I wanted to give a quick update on where we are at with our support raising for YWAM.  We’ve raised about a fourth of our needed support! We still need to raise $1750.00 in pledges. Isaac and I are very grateful for those of you who have chosen to support us in prayer and financially.  I am blown away by the generosity we’ve been shown.  We continue to trust that God will provide everything we need.  I’m going to attempt making a video sharing more about how we plan to be involved with YWAM. If Isaac helps me it will be cool… and if it’s all up to me it will be CHEESY (then you can blame him for leaving it up to me.)  I’m thinking a vlog is probably the best way to connect with people so be looking forward to that!  If you’d like to donate you can go to www.ywamdb.com.  All donations are tax deductible.

Thanks! Blessings, Kristi